How do I write all that I feel?
How do I not feel all that I feel?
A million emotions in a minute is how I feel.
The traffic of my thoughts is so overwhelming that it makes me go blank.
You can deal with your emotions and your feelings if they come one at a time but how would you deal with it if it comes all at once?
In the blink of an eye the feelings change and before I realize the page gets turned and a new chapter a new emotion surfaces.
Am I too slow or the world too fast?
..Is it just me who feels a little too much of everything?
A little too much of happiness when I am happy,happy enough that tears of happiness flow down my cheeks,
A little too much of gloom when sad, sad as much as to fall into deep silence
A little too much of hurt when I care a lot but no one appreciates my care
A little too much of thinking when I cant figure out what's going on
A little too much of pause when I don't understand how things are turning out to be
A little too much of coy when with new people
And A little too much of mischief when with the ones I know well.
Basically I feel a little too much of every little thing, a little too much of every big thing.
Yes I feel a little too much of everything but that's a little to much to know about me.
It's like knowing what hurts me the most and choosing the sharpest weapon to hurt me at my weak!
A lot of times, I do wonder as to why too many people don't think as much as I do or why I don't think as less as them.
But I have never been able to come up with an answer except the anecdote that, this is how people are and this is how I am .
Accept it let go and move on.
But off late this is one thing which really makes me restless.
Feeling a little too much is not bad because at every point in time you know what affects you the most and where, is it your heart or your brain.
One of the most disturbing thoughts I have is how when people say a certain thing is going to last for forever or always , the life of such forever is always short?
People would say they would be with you always and forever and probably their forever and always will end tomorrow.Wow! how about that?
When I care ,I care a little too much. Every little activity the good, the bad, the happy, the sad would affect me in way which would bring me face palm with a greater reality about myself.
How is it that at all points in time I feel a little too much about everything that happens around me or with me , for good, for bad- everything for me is a potential thought.
While, that can be the case for many of you but in my case even after being able to understand that how I feel a about a particular thing or a person the feeling to control this feeling, the feeling to get over these overwhelming emotions, the feeling to get over and out of it all, the feeling to master my feelings, sails through me but never allows me to drown enough to either let these feelings die or to get over the fear of drowning in this never ending sea of emotions .
How is it that one feeling, one thought, one moment of your life can stick with you for so long that you don't even remember how long you have been feeling this way?
How is it that this topic of dealing with emotions has no end?
Maybe because it's like the air we breathe, tiny dust particles you inhale-exhale, you don't see them unless under the sunlight, yet you just feel and most importantly you cant do without.
That's exactly how feelings are.
Yes , I feel ,I feel a little too much.
How do I not feel all that I feel?
A million emotions in a minute is how I feel.
The traffic of my thoughts is so overwhelming that it makes me go blank.
You can deal with your emotions and your feelings if they come one at a time but how would you deal with it if it comes all at once?
In the blink of an eye the feelings change and before I realize the page gets turned and a new chapter a new emotion surfaces.
Am I too slow or the world too fast?
..Is it just me who feels a little too much of everything?
A little too much of happiness when I am happy,happy enough that tears of happiness flow down my cheeks,
A little too much of gloom when sad, sad as much as to fall into deep silence
A little too much of hurt when I care a lot but no one appreciates my care
A little too much of thinking when I cant figure out what's going on
A little too much of pause when I don't understand how things are turning out to be
A little too much of coy when with new people
And A little too much of mischief when with the ones I know well.
Basically I feel a little too much of every little thing, a little too much of every big thing.
Yes I feel a little too much of everything but that's a little to much to know about me.
It's like knowing what hurts me the most and choosing the sharpest weapon to hurt me at my weak!
A lot of times, I do wonder as to why too many people don't think as much as I do or why I don't think as less as them.
But I have never been able to come up with an answer except the anecdote that, this is how people are and this is how I am .
Accept it let go and move on.
But off late this is one thing which really makes me restless.
Feeling a little too much is not bad because at every point in time you know what affects you the most and where, is it your heart or your brain.
One of the most disturbing thoughts I have is how when people say a certain thing is going to last for forever or always , the life of such forever is always short?
People would say they would be with you always and forever and probably their forever and always will end tomorrow.Wow! how about that?
When I care ,I care a little too much. Every little activity the good, the bad, the happy, the sad would affect me in way which would bring me face palm with a greater reality about myself.
How is it that at all points in time I feel a little too much about everything that happens around me or with me , for good, for bad- everything for me is a potential thought.
While, that can be the case for many of you but in my case even after being able to understand that how I feel a about a particular thing or a person the feeling to control this feeling, the feeling to get over these overwhelming emotions, the feeling to get over and out of it all, the feeling to master my feelings, sails through me but never allows me to drown enough to either let these feelings die or to get over the fear of drowning in this never ending sea of emotions .
How is it that one feeling, one thought, one moment of your life can stick with you for so long that you don't even remember how long you have been feeling this way?
How is it that this topic of dealing with emotions has no end?
Maybe because it's like the air we breathe, tiny dust particles you inhale-exhale, you don't see them unless under the sunlight, yet you just feel and most importantly you cant do without.
That's exactly how feelings are.
Yes , I feel ,I feel a little too much.
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